Space

There is space in my heart

For a stranger I never met

I don’t know where

The heart has been empty

For years on

And I lie to you

And tell you I love you

And show you I care

And you believe me

Your ego grows

And you believe me

Your pride grows

And you believe me

Your arrogance grows

Because you believe me

You grow

But you don’t know

That space in my heart

Is for a stranger I never met

I don’t know where

And the space grows

Where was I?

It’s when you..it’s like that thing that makes you.. No

It’s when it’s… you want to but no not like that… No

Because it’s unclear, you think you… No

You try to, but it’s not what you think you… No

When you get there but you find…

It’s so confused and you are so tired… No

Everything is like a mess in your head…

And all the things, the places and the people… no

I just can’t but… maybe that, maybe not…

You see me you think that I … No

You see me smiling and you think that I… No

It’s like eternity but you know it will stop, but you’re not sure where the thing started…

But you see that thing that you want, but you see that thing and you know you don’t…No

And they walk… Somewhere, away maybe… You don’t even remember how…

It’s that thing that is very simple, they say, simple they say… No

They say it’s easy, that thing, they claim they did it… They claim they have it… No

They claim a lot of things, you can see just the shadows of their souls in their eyes…

You know how it works, you do, you can read me, you can tell… No

It’s that moment when things go right, I mean things only go…

It’s like that promise you heard they keep… No, no one keeps a promise…

They told you things, that don’t exist, it’s so unclear, to me, where was I? I forgot to eat…

Have you touched it? Really? And you said you’ve seen it, right? Oh well… No

Yes, yes… I’ve had it long ago, you know I can’t remember when… Oh well… I can’t remember it… where was I? I just noticed, It’s 5 am and I can’t sleep…

You must not worry they say… They say it’s very simple… Easily obtained, they claimed… No

You cannot… I mean if you think I’m alright… Well I can still smile and you can see me happy you know… In my pictures…

Yeah I don’t know, who are these people? What they want? Have you met them before? No

How do they tell you they will be there, when they… Oh well we live only now and tomorrow might never exist…How do they promise? No

I tell you everyday how I feel, every fucking day because you ask me… You’ve seen it, in my eyes, you know I can’t lie…

Why do you not like the answer, I mean you asked me! No?

Anyway I’ve decided that I like the… Ummm… Where was I? How did we end up here?

You know? They taught me a lot of things they taught me… Like manners, like principles, like rights and wrongs… You too right? They taught you, you should be bright? No

No because they just were preaching, reciting, they didn’t follow what they taught you… Then suddenly you are wrong… Because you still stick to what they taught you… But you are to them wrong because who cares what they taught you?

It’s alright they say, you know why they say so? Because they have what you don’t… No

Because there are certain directions… No

And courageous people burn first…

But I’ve seen it late…

But they say it’s never too late… Hell no!

┬áIt can be too late.. They lie when they say it’s never too late…

Anyway, where was I? I just realized I haven’t been paid since months on…

She said I shall leave if I want to be a… I’m not sure what she said… But I always wanted to go…

He explained to me what that thing was, I can’t recall what he said… No

And they told me how to use this… I did… It just didn’t work at all…

I’ve been told that after the uphill it goes downhill… Buddy, it’s been always uphill, I’m tired bro…

That’s way to go… No

I can feel something, it’s like fire, but not that kind that keeps you warm… No

That fire that makes you wanna put ice on your… yeah… I have no clue what was that thing and when I explained how… They said no… No

I’ve chased it… I still do…

It’s like mirage in the heat of the desert… And I’d still go… on… No?

I have my flaws… I know I do… I forgive and forget… But they don’t do…

Where was I? I forgot my phone in the public toilette… How are you?

They told me things about me, wrote me poems and… I mean… Wow is that your son? I’m happy for you…

Where was I? I can’t recall the name of the street… Was it floor 3 where you live? No

Just like that… How did he figure how to heal? What page was it? Where I stopped?

Look at the Sun rising… Oh I’m sorry it’s 7 pm and it’s setting… No

This place feels good, but wrong…

Where was I? Why he’s gone?

How old are you, they ask… I don’t know what to say the food is burned… It’s 2017 or? No

Because it’s …

See you later I’m tired, I wish you know…Sigh… I wish you know… Sigh… I wish I know…