Monsters!

Once upon a time there was a little girl, with dark big eyes and long eyelashes, she never feared monsters under her bed, and threatened them until they never showed up again, she had a wooden sword and so much power, and in her heart she had endless courageous faith.

Until she saw a door that was semi open and had no light, she was too curious to see what’s behind. And her courage made her step inside. The monster that was there swallowed her soul even before she noticed ,and till now she can’t get back to life …

To Stars & Glory

Did you laugh at me?
Was it funny?

Did you laugh at me behind my back,
Then,when I had to stumble and fall,
Then, When I fucked up overall?

Yes you did, I know you did…

Did you run around, telling people,
Even though it’s my sacred privacy?

Did you all laugh at me?
Was it funny?

Yes you did, I know you did…

Did you laugh at me when I showed you my wounds, my scars and my hot bleeding soul?
Did you tell people how I cried?
Did you tell them how broken I was?
Did you whisper in their ears that I’m losing my faith, I’m losing control?

Did you not push me down fiercely and helped me drawn,
Then, when I was doing everything I could to get back to life?
Did you not wish that I die?
Did you not feel that ticklish pleasure in your chest, when you saw me dying?
Did you not feel outrageous when you saw me trying?
Did you not lock me up in a dark hole?
Did you not get rid of the keys?
Did you not close the God damn door?

Yes you did, I know you did…

But you are an unaware, ignorant, selfish creature…
Can you even see further than the end of your own nose?

Did you know that I always get up after I fall?
Did you know that I lick my wounds till they heal, and my scars no longer hurt at all?
Did you know that things like you don’t bring me down, even when I have to crawl?
Did you know how much it hurts when you put them first, while they don’t put you at all?

No, you did not, you won’t, you never will, because you can’t,
And I won’t show you the path to stars and glory never at all…

On Texting!

Online chatting and texting are awesome things, they can make life easier, more informative and faster to connect. People who hate/dislike phone calls, like me, prefer texting for sure.

But I’m not writing this post to tell you how awesome that is, I mean that would be lame and boring, I should criticize something, and make things look a little ugly, and spray some irony on the subject. That’s just me when I write, sometimes!

A lot of people make texting a very ugly experience, see? I didn’t blame it on texting, I blamed it on people! A lot of people make you wish you never got introduced to smart phones, and sometimes you wish you are on the surface of the moon, where certainly there is no 3G or 4G, some people piss you off and others make you just sit there in the dark and wonder “What the hell is wrong with these people?!”

Dear readers, if you are reading this make sure you are non of the people that I’m gonna mention below, and if you are one of these, please make some efforts to change, because whatever you are doing is just not right!

Strangers & Texting!

Okay cool, we never chatted before? You just found me randomly on some social media and you thought “Oh, what a cool chick, let’s chitchat and impress her!”

Wohoo! I’m all excited! lol

Look dear stranger, if you want to chat, try to follow conversation basic steps, don’t suddenly start asking questions, you don’t have to know how old I’m, where I live, where I work, how many brothers and sisters I have and what I’m doing right now. How about you introduce yourself? And how about you keep it nice, polite and short as a start, why do you have to be so nosy? You really are a stranger at the end, and butting yourself into my business is gonna make you look weird and intimidating. Stop that please, it’s totally ugly, a total turn off.

If we never chatted before here is a very important thing you need to know, I’m not so keen nor happy to receive a text from you late at night, I’m not happy to discover that a lot of people still think it’s ok to text strangers at midnight or later. And hey don’t you be upset if I saw your message and didn’t reply to you. Your late message can be interpreted as “RUDE, STUPID,INAPPROPRIATE, RETARD, ETC

Dear stranger, pretending to discuss work late at night is not an excuse for you to text, tomorrow never dies, hopefully, there is always tomorrow, and there is sunshine after dark, please be patient till the sun comes up and text me, I’m a hard working person, at night I do not want to discuss anything related to work, clear dear stranger?

Clients & Texting!

Great, we love you, we want to help you, we know you expect something from us, whether because you are paying us or because you believe in our knowledge/experience/intelligence/abilities, whatever that was, again I repeat DO NOT TEXT AT NIGHT and expect to have an answer, DO NOT BE UPSET if you were being ignored, because suddenly you felt the urge to figure something out, right now right now, no, no! Hold on! Everything can wait, I know because whatever your problem is right now, at 1 am no one is going to solve it for you, even you won’t get it and try to solve it, even if I told you what you should do, UNLESS, yes and I mean it, UNLESS it was an EMERGENCY, which in my case isn’t a possibility, because I’m not a hospital nor a firefighting station. Sleep tight, relax and text me in the morning, or wait for us to meet.

Managers/Business Owners & Texting!

Yes! I know you have responsibilities! I know  that you are concerned and I know you my have a heart attack from whatever position you are holding! But hey! That is not my problem! Try dear darling to, first of all, be clear in your texts and messages, be as short as possible, I’m sure someone in your position should be smart enough to deliver the point straight, loud and clear. Don’t contradict yourself.

Secondly, I’m not a slave, neither my colleagues, nor you, we are not slaves to our jobs, how about business text messages stop around 8 pm? Wouldn’t that be great? Wouldn’t it be just perfect to be work free physically and mentally by that time? Would you not want to watch a movie? See your friends? Spend time with your family away from your phone? Don’t you have a life? Awesome maybe the answer to all of the above is no! But okay, well, I’m sorry but I do have a life, and you being happy or stressed out for being a business owner or a manager shouldn’t affect me positively or negatively, and I shouldn’t feel that buzz and fuss that you live in, because honestly I’m not in your position, so please give me a break!

Thirdly, whatever language you decide to choose to text me/us, please use that language properly, either you know that language perfectly fine and you know how to use it, and so you do, or do not throw shit in my eyes and trash my head with your poor grammar and awful spelling! I know, they did you wrong when they made you a manager when your, let’s say, English skills are shitty, but hey! It’s okay! You don’t have to suffer! Count me in with you, I don’t have to suffer either! Would you like to use another language? Maybe your mother-tongue is the best option for everyone? Great! Please do that! It makes you look better, and we won’t be making fun of you behind your back!

Complainers & Texts!

Unless you are a family member, or one of those friends that I often hang out with, or be better said, a good good friend of mine, try not to complain to me over any text messages. Why? Because I’m already full of complaints myself, because I don’t need your negativity inside my phone and right there in my eyes and deep in my brains, and I don’t complain to you, so what made you just come and complain to me?

Okay, let’s be human for a second, I want to be a good person and try to help you get the hell out of your shit-hole, why on earth would you complain to me in the middle of the night…? Do you really think this will help me sleep? I’m already insomniac and your gloomy/stressful problems will not help me relax, chill and fall alseep. If by any chance, you are forced to complain, try to do it anytime of the day, but please, not during bed time please, that’s really not fair, not good for anyone and not going to make anything better!

LinkedIn Users & Texts!

Most of the times, you guys are being assholes! You know why? LinkedIn, and other similar sites, are made for people to connect regarding work, finding jobs and expanding businesses. Why do you screw that up and turn it into a dating website? Really? Is that the best you could make out of it? Seriously? Are you sure you’re mature enough? Are you actual adults? Or? Help me figure it out please!

DO NOT ACT LIKE A MORON and use such nice websites to find your other half! Go ahead, and create an account in some actual dating site, there are billions of them…

Texting During Gym Class!

Oh yeah? Wow! How nice of you to use your phone and text during gym class! How respectful and how polite of you! That also applies to texting while in school class, texting during eating, texting during receiving a massage, texting while praying, texting while reading, etc.

Look, I’m sure both Putin, the president of the Russian Federation, and Obama, the president of the United States Of America, keep their phones in the lockers when they hit the gym, and they do run a serious business, I believe lol. And so, I do not think that you will receive some text that is as important as the texts they might receive! That’s firstly.

And secondly, if you wanna keep playing with your phone and texting and taking stupid selfies and showing them off on SnapChat during my class, please get the hell out and come back when you are done, because you are very distracting and you also look very silly! Taraaa!!

My third point is very important, because it’s for your own good; look, I know this damn phone is stuck to your hands with some super glue, and that you just can’t help it, but how about you have some time for yourself? ME, MYSELF AND I TIME? “Me, myself and I time” is an amazing experience! You gotta try it! It’s really awesome! It makes you feel great! It helps you connect with your poor self! Try it, leave your damn phone somewhere and enjoy yourself without it. I promise, you will not die, no!

That’s all for tonight, I hope something will change after this.

Katia,

P.S

Not being upset,  mad or angry, not at all, again, I’m just saying!

The Worst Person I’ve Met So Far!

Well, don’t expect me to tell you who that person is, because I wouldn’t be that mean and reveal their identity. At the same time, I’m writing this for a few reasons; one of them is to share with you how I understand the meaning behind “Horrible/Awful People”, to share a very new experience, because honestly this person made me feel something very new and different, and because in order for me to keep my blog alive I gotta write something, lol!! I will try to keep this post simple and cool for everyone to read.

This person has a lot of bad things jammed together in their personality, and that was a little too much to deal with honestly, I wished to spend more time with this person, but man! There was no chance, not a little small one!

Self Centered!

Being self centered is okay as long as it doesn’t make people look like assholes, and being focused and wanting what’s best for us is something I hope everyone does, moderately, in order to achieve certain goals in life. I really have’t met people who actually devote their lives to others, yet, other than some mothers, and the rest of the world is usually self centered. But! This person has a very obvious issue which makes them look, sound and behave like an asshole, very self centered, very selfish which made them look also rude, because usually a self centered person is an inconsiderate person, and that can be very unbearable

Greedy!

I do not like greed in any level, size and shape. Greed is such an ugly element in humans, and I believe greed, if existing, is a massive destruction in every aspect.

This person went to work everyday, and came back counting their money, they are too greedy they wouldn’t buy themselves good food, or new cloths. They offered me food but didn’t want me to eat it, so they always ate something of my share, and this person is too greedy they wouldn’t offer anything to anyone for free, no way, they just couldn’t.

Well, yes, we shouldn’t expect anything from anyone, but this person was a friend, lol, and at some point in this life I offered some help and things for free for this person to make them feel good. So when it was their turn to return the favor, they fucked up big time, because of greed and selfishness.

Bullshitter!

Bullshitters are the last type of people you wanna deal with, for me personally, I’m madly blunt, honest and I have no time for bullshit, lies and empty promises.

This person is a very good bullshitter, they never did anything they said, or promised to do. A few times we were supposed to do certain things together and they simply didn’t show up, they didn’t bother to apologize. They promised a lot of things, things I didn’t ask for, that when I heard all those promises I thought to myself “OH MY GOD! I’M SUCH A LUCKY PERSON TO HAVE SUCH AWESOME FRIENDS” but lol! No! Every single promise they made, they broke, they broke within a few hours. RED FLAG WHEN TOO MUCH TALKING HAPPENS BEFORE THE ACTION!

Cheap Ass!

Yes we all like to go on dates, and we all like to be noticed, and we all maybe try to find our other half, or find someone with whom we can have fun somehow. But dude! This person would cancel all the plans in the universe to be on a date with someone, regardless of the situation and the conditions. For them DATE means RUN, because if they didn’t RUN after it, someone else will and going to take it, PROBABLY!

You don’t want to be friends with a cheap ass, especially if this cheap ass is already a greedy selfish asshole. LOL

Unrealistic!

realism varies from one person to another person, but please try to be realistic to that point where you don’t contradict with yourselves.

This person told me some bad stories about their father, and how their father ditched them, how their father made so many empty promises, how their father didn’t come to check on their step mom when she got some serious illness, how their father is greedy and never helps anyone financially, how their father is a womanizer, and how their father is extremely selfish, and how they stopped talking to their father completely, and stopped wanting to see him, and how even they hate their father and they don’t even want to know where their father is.

Then there was some awkward silence, because when this person was narrating all those bad stories and negativitoes about the guy, I actually felt very embarrassed and ashamed somehow, and they did too feel some sort of awkwardness, and ended the conversation by saying: “Yes, I sound and look and behave like my father now! But the difference between us is that I’m willing to change and be different, but my father never wanted to change!”

Baaang! Seriously? If your own father made you feel so damn bad in this life when he was around, that you ran away from him, why on earth would you be another copy of something you hate?! Can anyone explain that to me? Anyways!

Bottom line!

I had to spend a few days with this person, I wasn’t really sure if they are okay or not, but I all the time felt uncomfortable and unhappy around them. I felt so unhappy  and so irritated that I ended up running away from them, I literally collected my stuff and ran to the train station and I flew by plane to another place, without notifying them, and without saying good bye. I hope we never meet again, and I also hope, that life doesn’t send me another person whom I end up categorizing as another “WORST PERSON I’VE EVER MET” lol

This person a few days later sent me this song, and it made me laugh, because this person also showed me that they didn’t mature yet, although they are so proud of themselves being so independent.

 

The Kingdom of All Kingdoms, Water VS Blood “Episode 9”

The Kingdom of All Kingdoms
The Kingdom of All Kingdoms

Zoya the Queen has been for a while watching this boy in the under-world, he for now can’t walk, since he’s been injured in a car accident; broken legs and some ripped ligaments. And so the wheel chair has been a must till he recovers.

You may wonder what’s so special about this. I’d like to say the Queen felt for the boy, he’s been in pain, had to drop school, couldn’t run and play with the other boys and girls. He has been feeling horrible, frustrated and doubtful about his own future, because the doctors hope for the best but not assuring that it all is going to be alright. And as any other boy he had hopes and dreams, but frustrations and boredom got to him. But that’s not all, the boy has people to care for him, love him also supporting him. Which is good right? We all need genuine  people around,

But what triggered Zoya to watch the boy was the fact that the boy has siblings and relatives, and parents. He’s got a normal family, and everyone in that family thought they were an awesome family, with great bonds and truly connected to each other. But As soon as the boy sat in his wheel chair things showed themselves differently. Only a few cared, and some tried to and others never bothered, It did hurt the boy and others around who engaged themselves in his situation. So why didn’t the rest bother? Because they have been busy with their own lives, have been selfish, underestimated his medical condition. and have been striving to achieve their materialistic goals in life, not keeping in mind that priorities change and shuffle according to life events and circumstances.

It surprised the Queen to see how his friends, besides the family members who actually cared, have been showing more  concern than some family members.

The Queen thought it’s somehow wrong, and sickening. It’s not the way things should be like! And she decided to take action: they say blood is thicker than water! But life down there is kind of messed up and doesn’t always show that blood is thicker. Accordingly she mixed the blood with more water for some relatives, while she gave the friends who cared more blood than water, to keep the bond even stronger and tighter. Thinking if some don’t care then they don’t deserve the blood connection and all the sacred things related to it.

Katia 🙂