To Stars & Glory

Did you laugh at me?
Was it funny?

Did you laugh at me behind my back,
Then,when I had to stumble and fall,
Then, When I fucked up overall?

Yes you did, I know you did…

Did you run around, telling people,
Even though it’s my sacred privacy?

Did you all laugh at me?
Was it funny?

Yes you did, I know you did…

Did you laugh at me when I showed you my wounds, my scars and my hot bleeding soul?
Did you tell people how I cried?
Did you tell them how broken I was?
Did you whisper in their ears that I’m losing my faith, I’m losing control?

Did you not push me down fiercely and helped me drawn,
Then, when I was doing everything I could to get back to life?
Did you not wish that I die?
Did you not feel that ticklish pleasure in your chest, when you saw me dying?
Did you not feel outrageous when you saw me trying?
Did you not lock me up in a dark hole?
Did you not get rid of the keys?
Did you not close the God damn door?

Yes you did, I know you did…

But you are an unaware, ignorant, selfish creature…
Can you even see further than the end of your own nose?

Did you know that I always get up after I fall?
Did you know that I lick my wounds till they heal, and my scars no longer hurt at all?
Did you know that things like you don’t bring me down, even when I have to crawl?
Did you know how much it hurts when you put them first, while they don’t put you at all?

No, you did not, you won’t, you never will, because you can’t,
And I won’t show you the path to stars and glory never at all…

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Rise!

You will die, you will die 

It will kill you every time 

It will suck life out of you

And throw you behind

 

You will die trying 

It will kill you every time 

It will suck life out of you

And step over you

 

But when it rains you rise 

 

You will die, you know you will

As life will bring us down 

As people will suck life out of us 

As they manipulate and we still believe their lies

 

But when it rains you rise 

And when it does you will realize 

It’s not us, it’s not them, it’s that thing that keeps us alive until we die 

 

Die as many times as you want to

Die as many times as you think you need to

But don’t die broken 

Don’t die with sorrow

Don’t die when they want you to

Die only when you think you’ve done it & seen it all 

 

But when it rains we rise,

We get up, we get up, yes we try

Katia

Jump Off

Once I jump off the edge of this reality
Once adrenaline rushes through my veins
Once my stomach feels that extreme terrors and pains.

 

I will keep my eyes open, to witness the acceleration of that sudden change
I will use my voice for once,
I will scream so loud until silence penetrates my universe,
Coz i wouldn’t need to use it once again


Once my feet are out of that reality,
Once my head is up and empty,
I will be floating in a space of no gravity,
Where there is no fear, no doubt and no pain.


There will be nothing, nobody and No one that I know of,
I will be free, unburdened, light and peaceful.


Once I grab the hand of that fearful child,
We will be diving into eternity,
And the child will smile forever again.

 

Katia

Happy Birthday To My Best Friend!

Besties
Besties

My little friend is crazy, She’s growing everyday

Beautiful like an African daisy, whether it was March or May

Energized, all over the place but never lazy, I’m proud to say

Sometimes I think she’s idiotic, but that’s youth half way

But what is a friend for you without being ironic, to laugh, to cry and to pray

I wish her days better than mine, and jealousy I put away!

Katia 🙂